Creating Space for 2018

*Featured photo is my 2018 vision board with all the goals and dreams I'd like to achieve.* I’ve been ashamed lately. It’s not that I’ve done anything wrong. It’s that I’ve done nothing at all. I haven’t written for Kicking Asana in months.

Sure, there are new blogs on the site, but each of them are from pre-planned partnerships and collaborations. I still get to spill an essence of my being out in each one, but not in the way my personal posts get to tug at my heartstrings and expose a deeper side of me.

I haven’t really determined the “why” to the radio silence, but I have been able to catch it.

Have I done anything about it besides wallow and get angry at myself? Not until today. Not until this moment as my fingers glide across the keyboard, stumbling as they make their way from a-to-z.

When I first moved back from South America, I had so much space and it feels like nowadays that space has been taken over my to-do lists and “musts” - making writing a luxury that I don’t “deserve.” At least, not until I check every other box first.

Most days, I can’t check all the boxes.

Many days, I don’t want to.

I met with a business coach a month back and told her of my dilemma. Her response was to write about it. So, here I am, behind a screen, trying to connect to you in a way that I hope resonates.

In 2018, I plan to find that space again. I’ve said goodbye to a few key “space-takers” in my brain to make room for my creative and intuitive self to step back in. It’s not that my “mojo” is gone, it’s just stifled by the science and reasoning. The “I need to make money and never live paycheck-to-paycheck.”

My brain has become a ruler of my day to day and my heart dreams of the bigger picture while gasping for air.

Do you ever feel that way?

After many conversations with friends, I’ve found that the key piece of allowing your heart to lead is to find that space again.

To transition from going through the motions to being more deliberate with the actions you take.

Here are a few ways you can create space in 2018:

Make promises to yourself and keep them.

So often we find ourselves as busy little bees because we’ve made promises to others and our needs fall away. “I don’t want to disappoint them,” is not an excuse to disappoint yourself.

And sure, it may not feel like a disappointment to yourself when you say “I’ll just save this for tomorrow” or “the weekend will be better,” but what happens then is that we find ourselves in an endless cycle of neglecting our needs, stifling our creativity, and ignoring our intuition.

I just can’t do that anymore.

We’re tested throughout our lives. We can live with what we are comfortable in. Or we can go beyond our normal. We can take risks in order to pursue happiness. Or we can sit behind the fear-driven movie screen our brain plays out over and over again. We can say “no” and disappoint a few people in order to fulfill our souls.

It’s okay to say no. You’re okay. You deserve this space. You deserve this freedom.

I say “you,” but know that I’m talking to myself too. We’re all victims of the human condition, myself included. But, within that victimization is an opportunity to find awareness and shift our approach.

Remember, creating space isn’t selfish - it’s selfless.

It’s an act of love. Love towards yourself. It's the most beautiful and delicate thing you can do. As you guys know, self love has a major ripple effect.

It’s not crazy to crave something more for yourself. It’s also not crazy to get off track from time to time.

I don’t believe we’re here on this planet to be ordinary. To be mundane. We were not given the gift of consciousness to sit back and “go with the flow.” We are all in control of how our days look and who we surround ourselves with, it’s just a matter of owning that realization.

The next two weeks I’ll spend carving out space for 2018, but I’ll be starting small, simply looking at January. Where can you create space? What can you let go of? What does your soul crave? How can you make that happen? It’s okay if you don’t have all the answers. I don’t have them all yet, either. Just know, you are not alone. You will get everything you need and I love you.

See also: What It Means To Live Intuitively